Making progress..bodywise

So, first off I live in st louis aka the midwest and for anyone who doesnt live in USA may not know how many tornadoes have happened here recently. Missouri, luckily has houses with basements and no one was killed in the ones we have had but alabams has had a lot of deaths, which is really sad. I just hope people don't blame obama like people did bush when hurricane katrina happened. Anyways, my point is that its rained here everyday since last tuesday, so like 9 days in a row. So working out in the park for me has been really hard without waders on. So yesterday was supposed to be our first day without rain, but to no avail I get off at 4 and it starts raining again. It's not raining men, just water but it still sucks to workout with wet ass shoes. But when I got home from the workout and did my abs I took a shower and wow my body changes quickly. I havent weighed myself again, but i should have really taken pictures. Its amazing that working out 5 days a week and eating a little bit better how a 24 year old males body can improve so much. I still have a long way to go ab wise to be happy, but I will fail, because I suck. Speaking of sucking I planned on going to rivercity casino last night like did 2 times recently but I failed. I got home from working out and basically slept from 8 P.M. until I had to go to work. I felt like a bum, but kind of refreshed now. I still havent decided if I'm going to put money onto the merge network or bodog or anything online. I will wait to get my 657 dollars back first. I think I'll just keep playing live and keep that money seperate save up to buy a computer and TN, poker tracker, and sng wiz and have money for when poker does make its comeback. That may not be for years so I could either become bored by the process or maybe, just maybe I'll have a sick bankroll to move online and a good set up. This weekend I will be watching the UFC fights, which should be sick, I think randy, aldo, and gsp will be winning their fights, because they are all better than their opponents. I don't know how jake shields hasn't lost in so long but i think its because of lack of competition. I'll be back monday, and someone needs to transfer me 300 fpps so I can get that shirt HURRY!!!

Thanks Bung

Music

When I talk to people that play music I feel like they write me off as someone that doesn't or shouldn't have an opinion about it. I feel like people who play music forget that music is for everyone. The people I always hated were the ones that would try their best to follow bands when they were small just to say they listened to the band before they were popular, or before the "sold out." I call them music elitests because they think they have been graced by God to look down upon the radio listeners and the people who follow bands that have been lucky enough to get air time on a radio station. I think anyone who reads this knows people like this...its fucking annoying. I am someone that likes all different kinds of music. When I was growing up I only got to listen to like KHITS and KSHE aka 70's music. I know a lot of 70's songs now and hearing most of them reminds me of my childhood, and I love that music. It has its own unique sound that no other decade can ever touch. Then in the late 90's I started to obviously not be around my parents nearly as much and listened to bands like limp bizkit, green day, eminem, tupac, sum 41 and bands like that. This was the opposite of what my parents like, which in turn made me love it. I didn't know it at the time, but music was my own little secret rebellion from my parents that allowed me to get away from them. Then when I had my own car, with cd player (baller I know), I got to pick all the kinds of music I liked all the time. It made me really love driving because I got to just listen to any cd I want for however long and however loud. There were no rules of music in my car, I had free reign. This is where I discover my favorite band the used. I listened to their first cd for what had to be 2 years straight. It became me, it made me feal alive. It was more than music, it was a part of me and I loved it. I also listened to Story of the year a lot then and eminem. It was loud and angry and help me not be angry through any destructive way. Instead I would just rock out to some music on the way home from school. Oh shit I have to work again....boooo. Well tonight I am going to work out at the park then go to the casino, oh and I this will be my 4th day in a row, I will take off tomorrow and workout saturday to make it 5 days this week for the second straight week. Summer body u have a month to come it, I have to work hard. I'll post tonights results tomorrow.

Thanks bung

left of fpps

I have like 400 left over fpps and wandered if I could get someone to transfer me like 300 so I could get a shirt, lol I have never bought anything from them but I dont wanna just was the fpps. Thanks lol

Fire and Rain

Something I forgot to mention in my blog about my good friend dying was the song they played at the funeral. "Just yesterday morning they let me know you were gone," from the opening line the tears really just poured out from everyone. The crowd was just a chorus of sniffles and people trying to avoid eye contact. When I heard just those first words it made me remember that sick feeling when I found out the news. I've seen fire and I've seen rain
I've seen sunny days that I thought would never end
I've seen lonely times when I could not find a friend
But I always thought that I'd see you again
feeling when I found out the news.
This song is about all the bad and good things in his life, the ups and downs we all have, he's had a lot with being in a pysch ward and being super depressed. But the last line of the chorus, I always thought that I'd see you again. Its just so freaking true, you just never think about something that isn't sick as dying, but we all are and we all could. But the second verse is the best.
Won't you look down upon me, Jesus
You've got to help me make a stand
You've just got to see me through another day
My body's aching and my time is at hand
And I won't make it any other way.
I am someone that grew up catholic and am still religious, I still attend church pretty regularly. Its how I think when times are really tough, I pray. When I feel like i have no chance, no choice and its out of my hands I just call upon God for his help. Simply this post isn't to analyze this song, which is now fully associated to his death for me for the rest of my life, but more the impact of music on life. I will continue this post tomorrow, they actually are going to make me work right now, jerks.


Thanks Bung

Live poker blog? hah

So last week I worked out 5 days out of 6 which, imo is pretty healthy. This week I took off sunday from working out because of easter. So I worked out monday and I plan on it tonight wed and thurs, take off friday and workout saturday. So I know I can keep up 5 days a week. My workouts are 2 days a week park workout, its a boxing workout, takes about 50 minutes, and 3 days gym workout. The boxing work out is outside so its a nice change of pace, but its also hard on my knees so the elliptical happens at the gym for cardio. I plan on weighing myself tomorrow night to see where im at weight wise. I am already feeling a lot thinner/muscular. On the poker front I played live on thursday night and yesterday. I plan on playing at least 1 time a week, but more likely twice a week. I am playing 3-6 limit because I like limit more for some reason. The players are horrible, but the rake and tipping make being a big winner kind of hard. I won 60 in 2 hours on thursday and 93 on monday in 3 hours. Its me and a bunch of old men that know each other so its pretty friendly and fun. Its like a home game and they dont care about money. My job is to watch them when they have nothing and value bet. Ive been really good at it thus far. Also i dont raise preflop unless I have 10 10 or better or everyone folded and im on the button. I dont call with overs, and I only play when I absolutely know I am best and then I raise. I don't really check call and I am watching the players closely. I will be a regular winner at this game because I am better than they r. I will continue to grow the bankroll and once I get enough to move up to 4-8 I will and so forth. I will update regularly.
Thanks bung

Improving my health

I said that I would wait until I was 160 pounds to buy and xbox again and since then, last wednesday, I've worked out 4 out of 6 days and have plans to workout today, so 5 of 7 which is good. My groin is a little sore from running 3+ miles a day and doing sprints and jumps, so I plan on taking tomorrow off from that. Last night I was gonna go to the bank then to the casino to play some 3-6 limit or plo if they had it but we had flipping T-storms and tornadoes all over the area so instead I was in my basement for an hour or so and didnt wanna drive in the hail so I waited and went to the gym around 845. It was empty, which made me happy. I watched poker after dark plo version last night in bed and just wanted to play some poker. I wanna play live asap and will on thursday. I'm off friday and monday for easter, So I'll probably go thursday night and monday daytime. I will update either tomorrow or tuesday. I'll let u know how my live play is. lol


Thanks Bung

LOL

So I'm sure everyone knows that I made no progress on my poker goals. I guess my new goals for that are to see how long the money can sit there and not just get an email saying no cash for you. Anyways I'm gonna try to play more live games at the local casino. Hopefully I can make a schedule that fits my lifestyle to play once a week or more possibly. It sucks more having all the blogs I read basically going away because of this. Well for all those people who have families that play for a living I guess you may have wanted to have a backup plan before doing something almost illegal for a living.

Til next time BUng

Goals and other things

Ok so I played another session of 6-mans and it went pretty well, I six tabled again. I had two wins and 4 straight up losses. So I made 8 dollars, yay. Umm, I am still trying to figure out how to work the sng wiz, but I did some quizzes and read more about ICM and stuff from it, so I am happy with the way I have played and I havent got tilted about anything yet. My goal is to have sng wiz worked by the end of april, lol. My real goals are make a botp leaderboard, I dont care where or which one, by the end of may. I also hope to move up to 13 dollar instead of the 6 dollar by the end of june. But I have a long way to go. I am having the rule of 100 buyins and if I need to fill in a game because of volume I will go one buy in under. If I ever lose 50 buyins at that level I will move back down until I have 100 again. I just got back to 100 with the 6.50 so I need to win 100 buyins at the level to have 1300 which is what I need to move up. GL me.
Also, I have decided to not buy a new xbox yet. I posted that I weighed 182 like 2 months ago and didnt try to lose it until about 2 weeks ago. I started really working out again and cutting certain habits and foods. I will not buy an xbox until I'm back down to 160 and then I will assess if I really want it. It really just takes me away from poker/working out. I use it as a social device with friends, but maybe I will start bowling again, and get people to go so I see them during the week. Well, wish me luck on the sngwiz so i can get a graph up, also on my playing and weight loss.

Thanks BUng

my xbox died, frown

I have had my xbox for over three years (3 year warranty go figure) and I came home last night to find that I have an error E 74. Its fatal. So Xbox says they can fix it for like 120, but I have heard bad things about sending them in for it to be fixed. So tonight I will go to gamestop and see how much I can get for xbox parts and hard drive. I will see how much they will give me for a controller, and how much for the hard drive and power cord and stuff. I will probably sell my hard drive to my friend and controller too, depending on what they want to give me for them. But a new xbox is now 200 bucks, so I'm hoping to get at least 70 bucks back, and then it will be just like I got it for 130, the same price to get a 3 year old one fixed. So I loaded up a set of 6.50 6 man sngs. I have been studying icm and push/fold scenarios and I can honestly say it makes you think about the game much differently. I played all six at the same time, like a set, and I got 2 firsts and a second. I will play again soon, and hopefully I can emulate those results or better. I profited like 20 bucks, which is about 3 buy-ins so I'm happy about that. I will try to get up to 10 tabling by the end of may. Also, I have to download sngwiz to study and get graphs on this bitch.

Thanks Bungbert

no updates because theres been no poker

I went to a really close friend of mines father in laws funeral over the weekend. After which we all went to their house a drank and played washers, 12-0 on the day slight brag lol. So then on Sunday I played xbox most of the day and went to use the computer and whoops I got a flipping virus. Some virus that claims to be a virus protection so idiots will give up their credit card number to get rid of it. It's insane that people actually click on it and think its real, man they are too dumb to use computers. The only thing worse then them is the people making viruses to begin with. It takes a really shitty person to do that. If I found the person that made this virus I would cut off all of their fingers, and I mean it, they would live the rest of their life know what happens to people who make viruses. Anyways I just looked up on my iphone how to remove it and 30 minutes of attempting this frustrating technique and I got it yay. Well tonight its my g/fs moms bday so we are eating with them, then the gym. I have started working out again for the last 2 weeks and dieting because its about 1 and half months away from swimsuit season and i need to look optimal. I'll update thursday after I play tomorrow. thx

More death and some new poker life

My really good friends father in law died Wednesday. He was a good man that I have met and partied with a bunch of times like at least 40 over the last 5 years. He was a fun man that loved his children and grandchild a whole bunch. I am going to his wake this evening and then funeral Saturday. I am not looking forward to this at all.
In other news I couldn't decide if I wanted to get sng wiz and play some more 6-man sngs or get omaha manager, its like holdem manager, and try to my best to move up in my skills and money in that. Realistically I should have bought one of these a long time ago to keep me from treading water, but I'm gonna get a free trial of one this weekend. The one I chose was omaha manager, simply because I like the idea play cash games over sets of games. Also, I feel that so many people have figured out how to play sngs and I think PLO is just more untouched (even though there are obviously tons of regs there too). I will see how far this leak plugging, stat tracking, device can help me. Also, I will have graphs to spice up my blog instead of people just having to take my word, lol.

Have a good weekend and tell a friend u love them, thank Bung

The hardest thing I've had to see

On Friday morning about 10:15 A.M. I get a text message from a good friend of mine saying simply "call me." He is someone that wouldn't bother me unless it was important. His uncle, and one of my best friends father in law is on hospice and we have been kind of waiting for him to pass, so when I called him I expected to hear "Hey Pat, Bob passed away last night." I would have been very sad but he has been sick for a while. Instead I hear, Hey did you hear what happened last night, and I of course hadnt, then he told me something that absolutely shocked me, my 24 year old friend died in a car accident last night. I was in complete shock. About 10 minutes after hearing this I started to cry and was excused from work. I didn't want to be alone, so I went to my g/fs and we did some chores and errands that took my mind off of it. I knew a bunch of my friends were getting together but I didnt wanna see anyone yet. Then I went to the movies with my g/f friday night and saturday we went to the st louis symphony presents lord of the rings fellowship of the ring. Which the band plays all the music while the movie runs on a big screen, it was incredible because we both love these movies. Anyways, this time the movie really meant something to me with some of the things gandolf said. "End? No, the journey doesn't end here. Death is just another path, one that we all must take. The grey rain-curtain of this world rolls back, and all turns to silver glass, and then you see it." Frodo: I wish the ring had never come to me. I wish none of this had happened.Gandalf: So do all who live to see such times. But that is not for them to decide. All we have to decide is what to do with the time that is given to us. There are other forces at work in this world Frodo, besides the will of evil. Bilbo was meant to find the Ring. In which case, you were also meant to have it. And that is an encouraging thought." I never realised how much these meant to me until I had a big loss in my life. Gandolf tells us that death is not the end, and we all have difficult decisions in our lives, its just up to us to figure out how to deal with them. It really sank in.
So then came sunday, the day of the wake. This was the first time I had seen my friends since I heard the news and it still didnt sink in. We went to the wake as a group and the line was so long, about 2 hours, and about 1000 people went to the wake in all. There were pictures set up and everything and just a bunch of things to remind u of him but it still hadnt sank in. His mother and father were greeting people at the casket and it still hadnt sank in. Then it happened, I was about 3rd in line and the person in front of me swayed so that I could see danny in the casket and I felt it. The tears started up. His mom (who was extremely visibly upset) tried to say stuff to me but I couldnt respond because words were too hard to find. We all went outside and kind of hugged each other and looked away in silence for a while. It was real, it had happened and now its over, the life of a person was gone. It sank in so fast and made me feel ill. Yesterday was the funeral, and it was even more brutal. One of his 2 sisters gave a really good speech and was somehow able to talk really well and coherenlty which was suprising. His mom was still crying so loud and painfully that I could barely watch. After the chapel ceremony we left for the casket to get placed into the ground. Once again I couldn't watch his mom sway back and forth in her chair screaming and crying because she just lost someone that can never and would never be replaced. Mothers and sons just have a certain connection that can never be replaced of broken. She literally lost a part of her that day and he will just be a memory, a feeling, a sense of what could have been, and someone who changed her life forever. I've heard that people can die of sadness, they just sort of give up, and I would never had believed it until I saw the true sorrow in her eyes. Luckily she has a great family, and husband to help he pull through this tremendous loss. The other person that really got to me is a good friend of mine and his absolute best friend jason. I mean not everyone, including myself, has that one person who is by and large their best friend. I mean we all have really good and close friends and maybe a friend whom which you prefer the company over others, but not that true I would die for you, soulmate type friend. That was them, it just was, I cannot explain it but if you knew them you would understand that family is just blood. They werent friends, they werent brothers, they were a part of each other. A real living breathing part of each other. When I saw his the teary eyed look on his face as they lowered part of him into the ground I saw more than grief and dispair and sadness. I saw a young man losing part of himself. Will things get better? yes of course, but they will never be the same as they were or could have been had this not happened. So instead of yelling at God, why did you take him, or how can you be so cruel. I will once again leave you with a quote from Gandolf. “Many that live deserve death. And some that die deserve life. Can you give it to them? Then do not be too eager to deal out death in judgement. For even the very wise cannot see all ends.”